Ok, I thought for a while on how to respond to this one, so pardon the fumbles.
When I decided that I was going to place Delaney with an adoptive family-my mind was made up.
I think that I spent a lot of energy convincing myself that this was the right choice. There's just no way to kitty-cat-foot around saying that.
I think that with any life changing decision, you weigh the action to reaction ratio for every single option. I know that I did. I disappeared from Abrazo's radar for, like, a month. Then I saw a commercial for a Disney Cruise and I thought to myself--I won't ever be able to do that. There is no way on earth that I will ever be able to even relax with my family-I can hardly support myself and I work out of town!!!and I can't breathe..
The thought of placing my child was very comforting. I just had to think about the real of it. ya know?
I will elaborate later-gotta go to work!
hugs-Amanda