Amanda Mc

Personally, I wanted a family that had another child. There are birthmothers that have this specification in mind. (For those perspective APs that are wondering.)

My heart absolutely bleeds for those birthmothers and birthfathers who cannot let their families in on their adoption plans. My mom and dad have been awesome throughout this whole experience. My dad came to the hotel while Stacy and I were signing the papers, and he waited in the lobby. I am soo glad that he was there. He had met Stacy for the first time on the day I delivered Claire to this earth. And Stacy is forever grateful for the kindness and warmth that he was shown by my family. They have been one of the rocks that I step on constantly to cross back and forth through the river of emotion that has taken hold of my life. Family, to me is that rock. And I believe that it should be, no matter what. Even if they initially reject the idea or disconcern themselves from the situation; I think that it would feel better to just get it out! Don't hold back that feeling or try not to find the words to tell your family what has happened (or is happening) in your life. I hope that you can find the courage in your strength to confront this demon, if it is bothering you. hugs- and good luck.

I had no idea what to expect when I went to Abrazo for the first time. My good friend Timo told me that he had placed his daughter several years before and that I should check them out. So, I did. Barbara took me to lunch across the street at this Mexican resturant (I loved mexi food while prego! and we had good conversation. She asked me all of the right questions to get me thinking and I started on my path to Jennifer and Doug and Miller. I never felt any pressure to commit. The pressure that I got was from outside looking in and judging me for thinking about this plan. (friends lost) I didn't talk to Barbara for a month because I thought that I had decided to parent. It just sounded so good to everyone else. I really didn't think about the reality of this deal until I was a cruise comercial and thought "I am never going to be able to do that!" I will never be able to take my child to Sea World because I have no money... This was the pebble that started down the preverbial snow covered hill. Anyway-The support that I find through the staff and the forum has been a lifesaver. They know what to say to get your mind going. And they offer a good pillow of support for my weary, sometimes jaded head to lay on. I never felt any pressure to go through with this adoption, even when the film crew was in my face, trying to complete the documentary. (no pressure at all) So-Thanks to the staff for your kindness. You are in the right field. hugs-