KT - Thanks for sharing your story. It really helps those of us beginning the open adoption process to understand where you birthparents are coming from.
Smitty - It sounds like underneath your comments is a lot of pain and also some fear. I understand the pain of infertility and open adoption can seem scary if you don't know all the facts. My husband and I talked to several people and read a lot about adoption before choosing the open adoption route. Now that we're more educated about it, and thanks to the Abrazo forum can see it in action, we are much more comfortable with the idea of birthfamilies being a part of our child's life, when we do adopt. Remember, you and the birthparent work out ahead of time what level of openness you are both most comfortable with. For some birthparents, they may want regular visits. For others, they may want just letters and photos every now and then. Remember, they loved those children enough to give them up for a better life than they could offer them at the time. Would you have the courage to do what was best for your child, even if it meant giving them up? There are a couple of very good books I would highly recommend, that have been helpful to me:
* The Adoption Resource Book by Lois Gilman - comprehensive source of information on everything to do with adoption, including a comparison of the different kinds
* Adopting After Infertility by Patricia Irwin Johnston - fantastic book for helping you through the transition
* Adoption Without Fear edited by James L. Gritter - 17 couples share their personal experiences with open adoption
A lot of open adoption agencies also recommend "Dear Birthmother" by Kathleen Silber & Phylis Speedlin. It is a good book for understanding the birthparent's point of view, but I didn't like their statement that "Adoptive parents will never totally parent their child; and adoptees will never be totally parented by their adoptive parents." That brought up in me feelings like you expressed, like they were insinuating that adoptive parents weren't enough by themselves. I tend to agree more with the comments from the birthmothers in this forum - it is important that the children know they were not rejected when they were given up, but rather given to the adoptive parents out of love. Therefore, having a familial relationship (but not co-parenting relationship) should be helpful, not harmul.
Good luck in your journey to make the right choices for your family.
Linda