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TeyandTy's Mom

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  1. Wow! Elizabeth, you are so right.

    Yes we know it does sound trite to say "time heals" but, in many ways it does. I would have to attest that my first year after the loss of my husband Danny, was by far the most difficult. I don't hear songs, see photos, or see things that remind me of him and cry anymore. When I hear or see those same things now, they make me smile. He is always in my thoughts....it is just that now I can think of him and not feel so sad. I am at a totally different place now. ....I like to think a much better place. Nine years later I can say these things ...and really believe them myself. The pain is not as great....and the love is no less.

    I will keep those mentioned in my prayers that you find peace.

  2. Mandy,

    No I did'nt cry but, I felt like it....I was so proud!

    It is so crazy the stuff that I find myself getting emotional over. You know like watching Tyson saying his speaking part in his first Christmas Program. Who knew I was going to be such a softy! They make me laugh everyday! I was watching the boys play in the snow through the kitchen window( to cold for this mama) and Teyler got frustrated with his little sled and threw it down and slid down the hill on his belly! I laughed out loud! Everyday I think to myself..."what did I actually do for fun BEFORE my kids?" I must not have been having much fun! The pastor at the church I have been attending have been calling us the "Three Amigos"....

  3. Lisa,

    Thanks for ((((HUG)))!

    I hope my boys will see that I always had their best interest at heart. I just always look at it that I am raising young men. Hopefully when they are older they will be able to respect women. Single parenting is hard but, I am loving every minute of it. I think that sometimes I get it in my head that they need a man if their life. But, then I snap back to reality and realize that as long as they have a mom that loves them they are going to be alright. I am blessed to have wonderful men around that are such positive role models for my guys. My neighbors on either side of me adore my boys. They have a wonderful uncle and a godfather that loves them. These men are in their lives by no accident.....They were placed here with gentle hands of the master.

    I continue to be amazed everyday by my guys and how they are growing into such wonderful people.....I think that is Gods way of saying you are doing alright!

  4. I wrote a poem tonight when I was thinking about my boys and how blessed I am...

    (not sure if this was the right place to post it)

    Isn't it beautiful?

    How was I to know how beautiful the painting was to be?

    You see a masterpiece was being created for me...

    with each stroke of his brush done lovingly

    the artist used a rainbow of colors for my family.

    Isn't it beautiful?

    Van Gogh and Monet were some of the greats....

    But, it was for the master I decided to wait...

    A painting so divine...the colors so grand...

    done according to the master's plan

    Isn't it beautiful?

    There are so many choices in this rainbow of life

    How could he know which colors were right?

    I did not choose the time or the day...

    I sat back waited for the Father to say...

    your masterpiece is complete now handle with care...

    Isn't it beautiful?

    As I look at this painting done for me with love

    I give thanks to the Father from up above

    This masterpiece was created for me...

    It's a rainbow of love called my family...

    Isn't it beautiful?

  5. I am so glad to see all of the positive dialoge on this subject. It is never easy to step out of your comfort zone. It is the miracle that may happen once you do ...that makes it all worth it. Everytime I look at the forum gallery I see a sea of transracial famlies. It warms my heart! I know for me the idea of adopting children who were AA was never a problem. I know I am in a totally different situation than most.....because I AM biracial. It's funny however, the box that I did NOT check was boy. I know weird now that I have two boys. I thought as a single woman I would not be allowed to adopt a male. Little did I know. Again ...fear of the unknown.

    Racism is everywhere. It is a sad but, true fact. It is only when we educate ourselves that this will help. As some of you know I grew up with an extremley predjudice maternal grandmother. She did not in any way try to hide her racism. She would buy my other cousins $200 christmas gifts and she would buy me $5 earrings from Kmart. She would talk about my "nappy" hair when no one was around. My big lips and nose...when no one was around but, me. It was very hurtful...yet I succeeded in spite of her. My mother was such a strong force in building my self esteem...that I KNEW I was more than she (GM) said I was....which was nothing in her eyes. She would not attend my wedding...because.....My husband was biracial, one bridesmaid was black, I was biracial, one bridesmaid was white(but, my grandmother thought she was gay). She never accepted ME! But, the funny thing is ...is she LOVED my two boys! She died last year at the age of 87. I guess I can say...she never loved me or cared to show it ..! But, through the grace of God my precious boys were never victims of her Racism. She welcome them with loving arms. They LOVED her in return. It is still hard for me to see her in a positvie light. To my kids however, She was the greatest. That is all I can ask for!

    In the face of my sweet brown faced boys...my grandmother was able to see good even though it was in the form of her biggest hatred and fear!

    So, guess the whole point to my rambling is that things do get better, eyes do come open, and at the end of the day ......EXPECT A MIRACLE!!!!

  6. I have been attending a new church. They have an awesome praise and worship team. They have sang this song many times...and each time ....I am moved to tears.

    If you have an opportunity to listen to it somewhere...do!

    Michael W. Smith \ Above All

    Above all powers above all kings

    Above all nature and all created things

    Above all wisdom and all the ways of man

    You were here before the world began

    Above all kindgoms above all thrones

    Above all wonders the world has ever known

    Above all wealth and treasure of the earth

    There's no way to measure what You're worth

    Crucified laid behind a stone

    You lived to die rejected and alone

    Like a rose trampled on the ground

    You took the fall and thought of me

    Above all

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