I know from my experience that infertility can be really distructive to a person self worth and I was not a nice person at times and I took everything personally. When we were struggling to have the boys so many people would comment, of course with the best intentions, but I didn't want to hear that things were going to be okay because my heart was broken and I was shattered as a women. When I get the news that I was actually pregnant I was sure they got the test messed up. How could I be pregnant???? Of course I really was and I gave birth to my twins. I felt better about myself as a women but I still had the nagging voice telling me that it would never happen again for me. We wanted to have more children but I was really afraid that nagging voice I had heard for so many years would be true. When I finally got the courage to start with the treatments again all those feeling that I felt four years earlier came pouring back. People would tell me that at least I had the boys and I should be happy with that. Of course I overjoyed with my children but we felt that our family was not complete. I didnt' want to hear any negatives comments toward our decision to add to our family but of course people thought they should share. I realized in that moment the pain of infertility runs very deep and even though I had my older boys I still ached for that child that was meant to be in our family. I am so happy that I was not able to get pregnant again because it forced me to deal with all my emotions so that I would be ready for our next child to enter our family!!!