Hello Everyone,
I met with Elizabeth and Ashley from Abrazo today. My husband, Son, and daughter were there as well. The luncheon was informative and interesting. Zachery was "good" as far as good goes for him. He seemed to take to Elizabeth easily. I am more comfortable with my decision to place him for adoption now. He will do fine as long as it is not with me. I do not understand why his behavior is the way it is. I just except it and deal with it. I know it will be difficult to "hand him over" to another family to parent after I have parented him for 3 years. However, my parenting techniques are not working. He just lives in my house in his room. I feel like he is more of a guest then my son. I don't know where I went wrong with him. My daughters are "normal" children and I treat them the same. Maybe he is just wired differently.
Iam trying to feed my 2 month old a bottle as I type. I think I am more ready then I thought to do Zach's adoption. I think I just needed affirmation. I now feel more strongly I am doing this for all the right reasons.
My 9 year old daughter told me today she understands why I am doing this. She wants to meet Elizabeth to satisfy her curiousity. She told me she will be alright with Zachery living some place else. I will be alright with it too. I kind of feel at peace with my decision. I hope this will work out for the best for all the persons involved.